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JUNE! The read more month

Day planner once again activated…(Paulo Coelho-Freedom)

Unlimited free time…

Pondering…endless possibilities… ‘where’ ‘next’  ‘how’…

June…

In primary school it was what I used to countdown the beginning of summer days to be spent at the river diving off rocks into the deepest ‘blue hole’ we could find upstream or going to mango bush with my cousin and friends from 8 in the morning and only returning when the crickets started to sound louder, the shadows started to fall and the fear starts to set in of being last at the end of a single file which would certainly mean the ‘rolling calf’ would get to you first.

June…

In high school, it was the time that I could spend thousands of hours reading ALL of my aunts Mills and Boons romance novels where I of course would leap for joy when at the end the handsome sultan or the Duke would profess in long sappy prose how he felt about the girl from the moment he laid eyes on her and how he knew from that moment there would be NO OTHER for him. Le sigh. I use to sigh in such great contentment at the end when it all worked out. Could life be any more perfect.  But then when I got into her Danielle Steel collection; my very first was ‘Loving’ followed by ‘Family Album’ ‘No Greater Love’ ‘To love Again’ ‘Palomino’. Every time I would take up a DS book I just knew the protagonist would get married like (3) times and she would have had at least (2) husbands kick the bucket when in the middle of the book everything appeared to be perfect. Still. They became the highlights of my summers as I would escape into these rich women world filled with so much joy, travel, love, adventure, pain, suffering and peace.

June…

At the university it was the beginning of peak party season (for I partied hard in college) and the time we are all looking out and applying for internships and summer jobs and summer crushes (more some than others). It was a time when I knew I would now have an infinite number of summer days ahead to daydream and lament and miss my then boyfriend who had a girlfriend who knew he had me (my life was drama central back then. lol). Most of us would start making preparations to go back home (If you lived in another parish or on another Caribbean island). A time of preparation.

Now- June…

is a deciding month for me. For the first time in my life I am unemployed. Not a student, not  freelancer, not somebody’s child (obviously I am but not a dependent) Not somebody’s girlfriend, Not somebody’s boss. When somebody ask me the ‘who are you question’ I am no longer able to say hey- I am Sheneka, senior Operations Manager of so and so… These couple of days (cause you know, endless free time) have me thinking, when did I started answering the question of ‘who are you’ with my job title and nothing more? When did that became my brand? What is the one sentence that I want to tell people when they ask me that question?

And So…

June…

I take up this challenge to define who I am as a person and what is the one sentence that people will remember and say when they say Sheneka. I take up the challenge to do what I’ve always wanted to be doing regardless of what others may be thinking. And as I await the return of my passport (currently at a consulate) and the fate of my redundancy, I will drink the wine that I have put off drinking,  I will write all the thoughts I had placed on pause, and I too will go down to St Elizabeth and mingle with the poets, authors and learned at calabash and hope something ‘rub off pon mi’

What are your June aspirations?

How have you been describing yourself to people?

 

(1) Comment

  1. Anna Edwards says:

    I am in love with this!!! Looking forward to this evolution of the self. I just know it’s going to be glorious 🙂

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